Wealthy Playboy (Cocky Suits Chicago Book 7) by Alex Wolf & Sloane Howell

Author:Alex Wolf & Sloane Howell [Wolf, Alex & Howell, Sloane]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-10-01T18:30:00+00:00

Meadow Carlson

The past two weeks have been anything but normal. I don’t know if my life has ever been tipped upside down like this. The fact I’m even somewhat juggling it impresses me. I think my father being out of prison is the only reason this is even working with Wells Covington.

That’s what worries me, though. It feels so real with him, but I’m worried I’m just using him as an escape, even if I keep telling myself these feelings are real, that this could actually happen between us.

It may indirectly be the only nice thing my father has done for me, pissed me off so bad I can’t stand the sight of him, which forces me to go out and do normal people things, like have a relationship.

I want to be there for Mom so badly, and I am most of the time. I just need a break every now and then.

When he’s there, I want to yell, throw things, lash out, and that’s not healthy for her. Of course, she’s a champion through all of this. The guilt eats at me constantly when I’m away, but she made it clear she also wants time alone with him, which I kind of understand but don’t at the same time.

How does she forgive him so easily? It makes me want to scream.

Loyalty and trust are probably the most important things to me, which is why I feel a small pang of guilt every time I’m around Covington. He has no idea what I’m going through with my mom and my father. I haven’t let him in on any of that yet. He introduced me to his best friends, let me into his world, and I really haven’t given him any of my personal life in return.

To be fair, he doesn’t ask, but I know he’s serious about me. Serious as a goddamn heart attack. Every time he looks at me, touches me—I see it, feel it.

I do not have time to fall for a man, especially right now, not with all this going on. When Mom dies, and she will die from this cancer, it’s going to put me out of commission for a while. There’s no fucking way around it and it guts me to think about it. How bad it’s going to hurt. I know Mom will forgive me for working so much, not getting enough time with her the past few years, but I won’t forgive myself. I just won’t.

I had enough money, and I could’ve made enough time. The world could’ve waited. I know I’m being irrational. She’s fifty-seven and was in perfectly good health. We should’ve still had decades to come. Nobody could’ve seen this coming, yet I still should’ve gamed it out, should’ve had some kind of plan for this.

I hate that I’m like my father in that way. I hate that I got so much of him and so little of my mom. I don’t want to be like this. I just want to be normal and not have a brain that constantly calculates odds and risk and possible outcomes.

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